Do we look like sisters?
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 05, 2009
They love bags!!
For some reasons, they love bags!!!
They love to lean against the bags, sleep on the bags, no matter what bags!!
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Part of the "Action"
They want to be part of your work, too, you know. LOL
Whenever I am doing my work at home, they would be lazing on the desk, just so that they could be near me, so sweet :)
Peanut would sleep on my arm while I am programming.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Peanut and Muffin
Peanut is gutsy and very curious, he has been exploring the house, the moment I lifted the lid of the basket. Muffin, on the other hand, is slightly smaller and very shy, but she would follow wherever her brother goes.
They are my babies :)
It warms my heart, waking up to see the little fellows, sleeping so soundly on the pillow next to me.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
Thursday, April 09, 2009
The Wait
Once again, he told me he loves me. No reply…… from my end yet again, just a smile. He is waiting, I know he is waiting. I know not when I will be ready, not now, not when my heart is still full of someone else who has left me without a word. I know I should be furious but I was not, I was too disappointed in myself to feel anything else. I guess I have numbed. The only time I felt anything was the many attempts I have tried to let him go but the harder I tried, the more I couldn’t……breaking down and missing him all over again. Why is it so hard………………………………..
He is still waiting, patiently waiting for me to one day open the door in my heart I have slammed shut.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
......
I have no idea why but it has ended the very moment I spoke to someone about it. And I knew the exact moment it has ended....... I have no idea how to feel about it, to be enraged? to cry? to feel resign? ...... Am I cursed? or what? I dont understand .... why?
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
My 2 beautiful black cats for 2 weeks!!
Minako is away for holidays starting from last night. Her 2 babies will be in good hands :) cos' they are with me!! Choco and Lito are 2 beautiful black cats that are so so adorable, and taking care of them is definitely not a chore for me but a delightful task, a very delightful one in fact. I have to move in to take of them and her plants, and she has so many!!!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Angel Circle
It is good to feel the energy again :) Haven't been to any Angel Circle Meeting for a while. This time I brought Natalie to the circle, and she likes it :)
The initial meditation was good, a nice long meditation, very peaceful :)
After the meditation, Emily talked to us about crystals. Very interesting but so much to learn, cos now i can't remember most of the names. I have bought 2 crystal books, and that is one of the tasks I have to learn.
There are many angel statues and figurines in the house! And I want that in my own house!! I will do up my angel corner but first I must get my HOUSE!!!
The initial meditation was good, a nice long meditation, very peaceful :)
After the meditation, Emily talked to us about crystals. Very interesting but so much to learn, cos now i can't remember most of the names. I have bought 2 crystal books, and that is one of the tasks I have to learn.
There are many angel statues and figurines in the house! And I want that in my own house!! I will do up my angel corner but first I must get my HOUSE!!!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Angel Reading
Met up with Audrey last night. She told me my guardian angel is Julia, Angel of Faithfulness. I was shocked, cos' that name came to me in my writing, and I don't know why :) She has a golden pinkish glow. She is always with me, on my right side! And I always feel a very angelic presence on my right!!!
There is a Shaman seated behind me, not far from me, waiting for me to be ready, the awakening of my healing ability. He is my master in one or more of my past lives, and now he is my spirit guide. Audrey said my energy is always of a young girl, of native American heritage. Always running in the open field, happy and free in the nature. Many of my past lives I was that. And I seem to be running away, running away from something, she said could be responsibilities. I want to be free so I ran. That is the karmic balance I have to resolve in this life. I almost did it again. I was so tempted so many times to drop everything here and run away to a foreign land, and never come back.
I was also a White Witch, a healer that uses natural remedies - crystals, herbs, energies. Audrey said I have to regain my power as a healer again, my master is waiting for my awakening so that he could guide me. I am sensitive to energy, do not let that to waste, that is my life purpose, it has always been my life purpose. Just as I have close connection with the dolphins, for they are natural healer like me.
And it is in my aura that I have the green healing light.
Kuan Yin and Mother Mary are too, my guides. Me being compassionate and loving is the result of their compassion and loving energy, very strongly resonating behind me.
Audrey said my heart is very heavy with worries, she can see I am trying very hard to open my heart to love, but too much worries.
There is a Shaman seated behind me, not far from me, waiting for me to be ready, the awakening of my healing ability. He is my master in one or more of my past lives, and now he is my spirit guide. Audrey said my energy is always of a young girl, of native American heritage. Always running in the open field, happy and free in the nature. Many of my past lives I was that. And I seem to be running away, running away from something, she said could be responsibilities. I want to be free so I ran. That is the karmic balance I have to resolve in this life. I almost did it again. I was so tempted so many times to drop everything here and run away to a foreign land, and never come back.
I was also a White Witch, a healer that uses natural remedies - crystals, herbs, energies. Audrey said I have to regain my power as a healer again, my master is waiting for my awakening so that he could guide me. I am sensitive to energy, do not let that to waste, that is my life purpose, it has always been my life purpose. Just as I have close connection with the dolphins, for they are natural healer like me.
And it is in my aura that I have the green healing light.
Kuan Yin and Mother Mary are too, my guides. Me being compassionate and loving is the result of their compassion and loving energy, very strongly resonating behind me.
Audrey said my heart is very heavy with worries, she can see I am trying very hard to open my heart to love, but too much worries.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
He called me his wife :)
My low husky sickly voice is sexy?? Hmm... well ok, hhahahaha better than unbearable! And he called me his wife!!! I was, of course, inquiring about his car, which usually, is a man's wife. But no, not his wife but daughter!! Huh? Hahaha this is the first time. Then he said he was talking to his wife >> me? I lost my words. Wow wow wow I was overwhelmed and very touched that he thought me as his wife. I wish I am, I wish and it's just a wish.
Monday, June 18, 2007
Maybe I am mental
Twice, I was told I am not mentally stable, from two different persons. Am I? Are there more people think I am but are too polite to tell me? Has the betrayal traumatised me that badly? I know physically I was badly trashed but am picking up slowly. But mentally? Now I am afraid, what if I really have? What will happen? But I am happier now, so I should be fine, right?
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Love Actually
Just watched "Love Actually" again on DVD.
Was a lovely lovely show, I love it! It is one of those feel good kinda shows.
However, there is a bang of loneliness after I feel good for the characters in the show.
In the fictional world, well in this case, the endings are all good, well except for that poor little guy who fell in love with his best friend's wife. That is the worst agony! He was there to plan for the wedding and what not but silently standing at the side, gazing at the girl he loved and that is all he could do for the rest of his life, just stand aside and watched her silently. I feel for him, I can understand the sense of lost in his life.
Love found, Love met, Love rekindled, Love lost ..... all around christmas .....
It is June now, Christmas is 6 months away and I think I have to start planning to hide away somewhere. It is going to be difficult, I know, I tried that last year without success. Everywhere will be filled with jolly people in the mood of partying. Sigh...... Sometimes I wish I could just hide in some isolated place with no one around, facing the sea, listening to the wind. Where is this place? Hopefully by then, I have my own flat, and I could hide in my very own oasis. Shutting my world from the rest of the world. I rather be lonely on my own than to feel lonely when I am with friends. Hate the sympathetic look from people around you.
The airport scenes in the show was so warm, seeing love in the faces of people at the airport. It was so nice. For the past 2 years, at the "height" of my business travelling, there was no one to send me off nor anyone to receive me when I come home. Just me and only me. Kinda pathetic, don't you think? No one to call, no one to "report" to. Just flag a cab and go home on my own, back to my dark, empty room. Independence is a lonely thing and I have chosen that. All the happy endings, where's mine? When will I have a relationship beyond my mobile and email? I am so glad at least for these few months that there will not be any public holidays. Weekends are hard enough to go by, now I have intentionally pick up freelance work till September, so weekends will be more bearable for a while. I have also signed up to be a docent at the zoo, if everything goes well during my interview, I will be starting my 10-week course on becoming a docent. Now, that is going to be a highlight for me. I am just so terribly horrified of holiday seasons, so end of the year is going to be super tough. I need strength to go through them.
Was a lovely lovely show, I love it! It is one of those feel good kinda shows.
However, there is a bang of loneliness after I feel good for the characters in the show.
In the fictional world, well in this case, the endings are all good, well except for that poor little guy who fell in love with his best friend's wife. That is the worst agony! He was there to plan for the wedding and what not but silently standing at the side, gazing at the girl he loved and that is all he could do for the rest of his life, just stand aside and watched her silently. I feel for him, I can understand the sense of lost in his life.
Love found, Love met, Love rekindled, Love lost ..... all around christmas .....
It is June now, Christmas is 6 months away and I think I have to start planning to hide away somewhere. It is going to be difficult, I know, I tried that last year without success. Everywhere will be filled with jolly people in the mood of partying. Sigh...... Sometimes I wish I could just hide in some isolated place with no one around, facing the sea, listening to the wind. Where is this place? Hopefully by then, I have my own flat, and I could hide in my very own oasis. Shutting my world from the rest of the world. I rather be lonely on my own than to feel lonely when I am with friends. Hate the sympathetic look from people around you.
The airport scenes in the show was so warm, seeing love in the faces of people at the airport. It was so nice. For the past 2 years, at the "height" of my business travelling, there was no one to send me off nor anyone to receive me when I come home. Just me and only me. Kinda pathetic, don't you think? No one to call, no one to "report" to. Just flag a cab and go home on my own, back to my dark, empty room. Independence is a lonely thing and I have chosen that. All the happy endings, where's mine? When will I have a relationship beyond my mobile and email? I am so glad at least for these few months that there will not be any public holidays. Weekends are hard enough to go by, now I have intentionally pick up freelance work till September, so weekends will be more bearable for a while. I have also signed up to be a docent at the zoo, if everything goes well during my interview, I will be starting my 10-week course on becoming a docent. Now, that is going to be a highlight for me. I am just so terribly horrified of holiday seasons, so end of the year is going to be super tough. I need strength to go through them.
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