Saturday, June 09, 2007
Strange Dream
In spite of my constant waking last night, I think I have several dreams. But at this moment, I only remember one, cos it is so bizarre!! In the dream, I was wearing a blue jump suit and ready to leap into the air like a bird, oh gosh, "Blue Bird"!!! Hahahahaha.... Anyway, I remember I have to get to the top of some building, for what? I have no idea. Suddenly, the scene changed before I have a chance to leap into my flight, my mission remain unchanged, however instead of "flying" to the top of the building, now I have to climb up the glass window with suction!!! Have I imagined myself as one of the Charlie Angels? I wonder!!!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Come what may
He "cuddled" me to sleep last night or rather this morning. Although I am still wishing the cuddling is real, but this is the best I will get. I don't understand why I love him so much but I just know I do and will always do. Like in the song "Come what may", I will love him till my dying day and beyond.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Time with the cats :)
Received a call from Minako last night. She has decided to go Europe after all to meet her boyfriend. Whatever communication issues they have, are finally resolved, I am extremely happy for them, and looking forward to meet Mr Charming when it is his turn to come visit her. Long distance relationship is tough, especially when there is a time difference of 6-8 hours.
Her utmost worry when she is away are her 2 cats. But hey, she got me!!! :)
I will be staying at her house taking care of Lito-Chan and Choco-Chan.
I have no complains, I LOVE THEM!!! Will be with them for 2 weeks :)
Ah .... bliss ................
Her utmost worry when she is away are her 2 cats. But hey, she got me!!! :)
I will be staying at her house taking care of Lito-Chan and Choco-Chan.
I have no complains, I LOVE THEM!!! Will be with them for 2 weeks :)
Ah .... bliss ................
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Metaphysics
I was torn between seeing Audrey or this metaphysician guy that YS has recommended, but she reminded I have to listen with an open heart, cos he is blunt and straight to the point, and I might not like what I hear. Audrey is about healing, and I have been wondering if I need any Karmic healing ... but YP told me in the last gathering, I do not have any karmic issue to deal with in this life. Hmmm, so I adhered to YS' suggestion and tossed a coin and let the angels decide for me, and ok, see the metaphysician.
I was there right on time, and immediately he started charting the numbers of my life! wow, Renee did numerology for me the last time, and she used computer to generate my chart, this guy is doing it manually!! And the charting is different! Now, that's interesting. I didn't realise there are different type of numerology, gosh so much to learn.
As he was drawing MY chart, I was braising myself for all bad things ... oh but no, I was all good. Unbelievable. He said my life will be better as I grow older. Hmmm... older? Haven't several told me I might not have that chance to grow older? Not sure is that good or bad, hmmm.... at least he said I do not have any major downturn in my life, the worst has already gone. Yippeeee! Now that's good news! He went on to tell me about my personality, my temperament, etc.
I am slow and steady, systemic, neat, quick to spot error (that's good! Help in my program debugging!). I am outspoken and direct but could be blunt. Any target I set for myself, I will make sure it is obtainable (no wonder my boss like me so much, cos' I will DEFINITELY deliver my project!).
However, my main problem is Love!! Not an easy person to love, cos I am too career driven!! Well, this is true, that's why my marriage failed. As long as i do not sign the paper, I am fine. That's good! Exactly my intention. He also said my life revolving around children. My work is related to children, even my part time hobby kinda work is related to children, and he suggested that my voluntary work should be dealing with children too. I think I have to work with YS on the stuffs for kids, since hers is centered around children too!!
Then the most important issue - the house. He said the delay is quite inevitable, and there is waiting involved. Sigh .... and the bad news is no matter how hasty I try to expedite the whole event, I will be encountered some form of road block.
All in all, the general scope of things for me is great! so I am pretty much relieved, and I don't have any karmic issue, which is good, but still I am curious about my past lives. Maybe I should listen to YP. She, too, told me there is none to resolve so there is no need to look at them. When she told me I am elemental, does that mean I am simply surrounded by the fairies OR am I one of the fairies!! :P
Maybe I should stop deviating and concentrating on learning the healing of angels and fairies proper!!
Throughout the reading, I have more curiosity on how to do the reading then listening to my own reading!! But is not easy definitely, he has learned this numerology for 20 over years!!!
YS reminded me that the world has shifted to co-creation, so whatever negativity is not fixated, it can be changed. We have to consciously manifest it to be positive. Do not forget co-creation and the power of manifestation. And enlist the angels and heaven to help in your co-creation!!
:)
I was there right on time, and immediately he started charting the numbers of my life! wow, Renee did numerology for me the last time, and she used computer to generate my chart, this guy is doing it manually!! And the charting is different! Now, that's interesting. I didn't realise there are different type of numerology, gosh so much to learn.
As he was drawing MY chart, I was braising myself for all bad things ... oh but no, I was all good. Unbelievable. He said my life will be better as I grow older. Hmmm... older? Haven't several told me I might not have that chance to grow older? Not sure is that good or bad, hmmm.... at least he said I do not have any major downturn in my life, the worst has already gone. Yippeeee! Now that's good news! He went on to tell me about my personality, my temperament, etc.
I am slow and steady, systemic, neat, quick to spot error (that's good! Help in my program debugging!). I am outspoken and direct but could be blunt. Any target I set for myself, I will make sure it is obtainable (no wonder my boss like me so much, cos' I will DEFINITELY deliver my project!).
However, my main problem is Love!! Not an easy person to love, cos I am too career driven!! Well, this is true, that's why my marriage failed. As long as i do not sign the paper, I am fine. That's good! Exactly my intention. He also said my life revolving around children. My work is related to children, even my part time hobby kinda work is related to children, and he suggested that my voluntary work should be dealing with children too. I think I have to work with YS on the stuffs for kids, since hers is centered around children too!!
Then the most important issue - the house. He said the delay is quite inevitable, and there is waiting involved. Sigh .... and the bad news is no matter how hasty I try to expedite the whole event, I will be encountered some form of road block.
All in all, the general scope of things for me is great! so I am pretty much relieved, and I don't have any karmic issue, which is good, but still I am curious about my past lives. Maybe I should listen to YP. She, too, told me there is none to resolve so there is no need to look at them. When she told me I am elemental, does that mean I am simply surrounded by the fairies OR am I one of the fairies!! :P
Maybe I should stop deviating and concentrating on learning the healing of angels and fairies proper!!
Throughout the reading, I have more curiosity on how to do the reading then listening to my own reading!! But is not easy definitely, he has learned this numerology for 20 over years!!!
YS reminded me that the world has shifted to co-creation, so whatever negativity is not fixated, it can be changed. We have to consciously manifest it to be positive. Do not forget co-creation and the power of manifestation. And enlist the angels and heaven to help in your co-creation!!
:)
Julie
------------- a little story i wrote in 1999, it is unfinished ... --------------
“Julie, my love. It’s time. I’m going to see Gram soon. I’ve missed her so much.” Grandpapa held me for the very last time. He looked so peaceful and ready, I cried. “Don’t cry, little gypsy. We will be with you always.”
He left. I was glad there was no pain.
I was an orphan. Gram and Grandpapa found me near the tree in the barn. I was left behind, an unwanted child. But I was no where near being dysfunctional, the love I have received from Gram and Grandpapa were in abundance, I have so much more to share with anyone who need them.
Gram left us 5 years ago when I was only 15. She has been quite ill for as long as I remember. 15 years, she suffered the pain of her illness, but she never allowed us to see her in pain, she suffered them in silence, until the day she could no longer withhold, she left. Life was tough without Gram, she was the sunshine, the laughter, everything. Grandpapa was in deep sorrow, without Gram, he lost his will to live, too. It was unbearable to look at him in that state. He aged so much more overnight it broke my heart.
Then one day, suddenly he came to live again! He was Grandpapa again; I have missed him so much. We could finally talk and laugh together, just like old time.
“Julie! Julie! Your Grandpapa! Go! To the hospital! Now!”
I lost Grandpapa that day.
I left too, the week after. I have chosen to lick my wound somewhere else.
Hopped onto the bus and left, no idea where it will bring me.
The bus finally stopped at quiet little town by the sea. Ah, the sea. So beautiful and peaceful, the air was different.
I found a job in the deli and another in a big house. The owner was away most of the time, so I was to be a house sitter. Fine by me, as long as there was a roof over my head.
The house was huge. I wondered who lived there. Once a week, someone came to clean the house, so I didn’t have to clean the house. I stayed in the guestroom on the ground floor.
When I was not working in the deli, I was in the library in the house. There were more books that I have seen in the bookshop. Sometimes, I fell asleep in the couch reading.
Noise.
I was woken by a noise in the house. Oh no, I hope it was not the burglar, what am I to do. I grabbed the first thing my hands grabbed, a golf club. Slowly and quietly, I inched my way to the door. Please God, let there just be my imagination.
Before I could open the door, it swinged open and knocked me down on my nose. And I saw black.
“Oh dear, I am so sorry. Are you alright? Who are you? What are you doing in my house?”
Too many questions. Oh, my head. It hurt. “My house”? I opened my eyes and stared into the most beautiful shade of blue.
“Are you alright? I hope you are not having a concussion or something.”
“I am sorry, you must be Mr. Tavis. I am Julie, your house-sitter. Sorry again for intruding your library.”
“No, no. That’s fine. It’s always a pleasure to share this treasure from my father. His quest for knowledge was boundless. He would be happy to see that his library was not rendered useless.”
“Mr. Tavis, welcome home, it is a pleasure to work for you. Now that you are home, I believe my service is no longer necessary. I will go …”
“Julie, do you like this house?”
“Me? Of course. Who wouldn’t. I could practically live in this library.”
“Then, stay on. I could invent an employment for you. You don’t have to leave.”
“But ..”
“I insist. It’s nice to have some company.”
He left the room with the brightest and most beautiful smile I have ever seen.
But I can’t stay here infinitely; Mrs. Tavis will not be too happy to find a female house-sitter within the premise. I have to make plan to leave though the invitation was so tempting.
“Good morning.”
I jumped.
“Good morning, Mr. Tavis.”
My daily encounter with Mr. Tavis was just that.
Until one night, I heard him stumped into the house. He must be drunk.
I went to him, but he seemed to be in pain.
“Mr. Tavis! Mr. Tavis! Oh my gosh! Are you ok?”
“M ..y pil..ls, in .. my ..case ..”
Clumsily, I fumbled into his case.
“Oh.. where is it? Where is it?”
Found it. I helped him to his medication and lay him on the sofa.
The pills took effect in few minutes. His frown smoothened.
“Thank you, Julie.”
“Let me help you to your room, you should be resting. You should take a day off tomorrow to do exactly that too.”
He fell into a deep sleep almost immediately after he lay on his bed.
I stayed by him for the night.
I woke up from the couch and saw him sitting in front of me looking at me, like I was a specimen or something, it was nerve-wrecking. He looked well now.
“Thank you Julie.”
“I, ah, I should go and make some breakfast.”
I practically ran out of the room.
In the kitchen, I focused on making the breakfast, but I was acutely aware of his presence in the house.
“Julie.”
I jumped.
“Thank you again.”
“You look so much better now.”
“Yes. Since I will be taking your suggestion to rest today, would you like to be my companion for the day?”
“Companion?”
“We could go for a drive, have a picnic, watch a movie, things like that?”
“But, you should be resting.”
“Not working is resting for me. I am too restless to sit around at home. Come on, let’s go for a walk by the sea.”
He grabbed my hand and we left the house. We walked to the beach, enjoying the warm breeze, still holding my hand.
“It has been a while since I have been this relax.”
I smiled, not knowing what to say. He smiled. We walked in silence for a long time.
“Thank you, Julie. I have a great time.”
“Thank you. Me, too.”
We didn’t go for a drive, or watch a movie after that. He received a call left immediately after that. He didn’t come back for a few days.
I love the garden, it was beautiful, and I tried my best to help the gardener maintain its beauty.
I was pruning the plants when I sensed someone’s gaze intensely at me.
I turned around and saw Mr. Tavis. He stood there, looking so much like a Greek God and smiling at me.
“Hi Julie.”
“Hello, Mr Tavis. Your heart is fine today?”
He walked towards me, removed my gardening groves, held my hand, and led me to the beach. Not saying a single word.
“I’ve missed you.”
Me?
I stopped.
He held both my hands and smiled.
Gently, he leaned forward to kiss me on my lips. His feather-like kiss that did me in. It sent me to my knees. I was never been kissed.
“Julie!”
He caught me and held me, oh so protectively. I felt safe in his arms.
“Shhh…. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to frighten you so. No. Never my intention.”
We sat on the beach; he continued to cradle me to him, like he was not ever going to let me go.
“Mr. Tavis, I, ..”
“Julie, my love, call me Josh.”
My love? This was too much.
“Mr. Tavis, uh, Josh. I don’t know how? But I don’t deserve this. I should make my leave, ah, Mrs. Tavis would not approve of this.”
“My mother? Why would my mother not approve of you?”
“Your mother? No, no, I mean, uh, Mrs. Josh Tavis.”
“MaryAnn, she would love you. She would have picked you up for me. Maybe she has.”
“I don’t understand.”
“She has gone to the heaven 5 years ago. She must have sent you to me.”
Silence tears.
“Mr. Tavis, …”
“Josh.”
“Josh, I am delighted for your attention but, but I am not MaryAnn. I wouldn’t know how to be her. I, uh, ”
He silenced me with a kiss. No, no, he was trying to shut down my mind, I can’t but it was so enchanting.
“Julie, I have never said you have to be MaryAnn. No one can be like her. No way. She is as noisy as you are quiet. Julie, just be you, you don’t have to be anyone else for anyone, not even for me, ok?”
“Julie, my love. It’s time. I’m going to see Gram soon. I’ve missed her so much.” Grandpapa held me for the very last time. He looked so peaceful and ready, I cried. “Don’t cry, little gypsy. We will be with you always.”
He left. I was glad there was no pain.
I was an orphan. Gram and Grandpapa found me near the tree in the barn. I was left behind, an unwanted child. But I was no where near being dysfunctional, the love I have received from Gram and Grandpapa were in abundance, I have so much more to share with anyone who need them.
Gram left us 5 years ago when I was only 15. She has been quite ill for as long as I remember. 15 years, she suffered the pain of her illness, but she never allowed us to see her in pain, she suffered them in silence, until the day she could no longer withhold, she left. Life was tough without Gram, she was the sunshine, the laughter, everything. Grandpapa was in deep sorrow, without Gram, he lost his will to live, too. It was unbearable to look at him in that state. He aged so much more overnight it broke my heart.
Then one day, suddenly he came to live again! He was Grandpapa again; I have missed him so much. We could finally talk and laugh together, just like old time.
“Julie! Julie! Your Grandpapa! Go! To the hospital! Now!”
I lost Grandpapa that day.
I left too, the week after. I have chosen to lick my wound somewhere else.
Hopped onto the bus and left, no idea where it will bring me.
The bus finally stopped at quiet little town by the sea. Ah, the sea. So beautiful and peaceful, the air was different.
I found a job in the deli and another in a big house. The owner was away most of the time, so I was to be a house sitter. Fine by me, as long as there was a roof over my head.
The house was huge. I wondered who lived there. Once a week, someone came to clean the house, so I didn’t have to clean the house. I stayed in the guestroom on the ground floor.
When I was not working in the deli, I was in the library in the house. There were more books that I have seen in the bookshop. Sometimes, I fell asleep in the couch reading.
Noise.
I was woken by a noise in the house. Oh no, I hope it was not the burglar, what am I to do. I grabbed the first thing my hands grabbed, a golf club. Slowly and quietly, I inched my way to the door. Please God, let there just be my imagination.
Before I could open the door, it swinged open and knocked me down on my nose. And I saw black.
“Oh dear, I am so sorry. Are you alright? Who are you? What are you doing in my house?”
Too many questions. Oh, my head. It hurt. “My house”? I opened my eyes and stared into the most beautiful shade of blue.
“Are you alright? I hope you are not having a concussion or something.”
“I am sorry, you must be Mr. Tavis. I am Julie, your house-sitter. Sorry again for intruding your library.”
“No, no. That’s fine. It’s always a pleasure to share this treasure from my father. His quest for knowledge was boundless. He would be happy to see that his library was not rendered useless.”
“Mr. Tavis, welcome home, it is a pleasure to work for you. Now that you are home, I believe my service is no longer necessary. I will go …”
“Julie, do you like this house?”
“Me? Of course. Who wouldn’t. I could practically live in this library.”
“Then, stay on. I could invent an employment for you. You don’t have to leave.”
“But ..”
“I insist. It’s nice to have some company.”
He left the room with the brightest and most beautiful smile I have ever seen.
But I can’t stay here infinitely; Mrs. Tavis will not be too happy to find a female house-sitter within the premise. I have to make plan to leave though the invitation was so tempting.
“Good morning.”
I jumped.
“Good morning, Mr. Tavis.”
My daily encounter with Mr. Tavis was just that.
Until one night, I heard him stumped into the house. He must be drunk.
I went to him, but he seemed to be in pain.
“Mr. Tavis! Mr. Tavis! Oh my gosh! Are you ok?”
“M ..y pil..ls, in .. my ..case ..”
Clumsily, I fumbled into his case.
“Oh.. where is it? Where is it?”
Found it. I helped him to his medication and lay him on the sofa.
The pills took effect in few minutes. His frown smoothened.
“Thank you, Julie.”
“Let me help you to your room, you should be resting. You should take a day off tomorrow to do exactly that too.”
He fell into a deep sleep almost immediately after he lay on his bed.
I stayed by him for the night.
I woke up from the couch and saw him sitting in front of me looking at me, like I was a specimen or something, it was nerve-wrecking. He looked well now.
“Thank you Julie.”
“I, ah, I should go and make some breakfast.”
I practically ran out of the room.
In the kitchen, I focused on making the breakfast, but I was acutely aware of his presence in the house.
“Julie.”
I jumped.
“Thank you again.”
“You look so much better now.”
“Yes. Since I will be taking your suggestion to rest today, would you like to be my companion for the day?”
“Companion?”
“We could go for a drive, have a picnic, watch a movie, things like that?”
“But, you should be resting.”
“Not working is resting for me. I am too restless to sit around at home. Come on, let’s go for a walk by the sea.”
He grabbed my hand and we left the house. We walked to the beach, enjoying the warm breeze, still holding my hand.
“It has been a while since I have been this relax.”
I smiled, not knowing what to say. He smiled. We walked in silence for a long time.
“Thank you, Julie. I have a great time.”
“Thank you. Me, too.”
We didn’t go for a drive, or watch a movie after that. He received a call left immediately after that. He didn’t come back for a few days.
I love the garden, it was beautiful, and I tried my best to help the gardener maintain its beauty.
I was pruning the plants when I sensed someone’s gaze intensely at me.
I turned around and saw Mr. Tavis. He stood there, looking so much like a Greek God and smiling at me.
“Hi Julie.”
“Hello, Mr Tavis. Your heart is fine today?”
He walked towards me, removed my gardening groves, held my hand, and led me to the beach. Not saying a single word.
“I’ve missed you.”
Me?
I stopped.
He held both my hands and smiled.
Gently, he leaned forward to kiss me on my lips. His feather-like kiss that did me in. It sent me to my knees. I was never been kissed.
“Julie!”
He caught me and held me, oh so protectively. I felt safe in his arms.
“Shhh…. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to frighten you so. No. Never my intention.”
We sat on the beach; he continued to cradle me to him, like he was not ever going to let me go.
“Mr. Tavis, I, ..”
“Julie, my love, call me Josh.”
My love? This was too much.
“Mr. Tavis, uh, Josh. I don’t know how? But I don’t deserve this. I should make my leave, ah, Mrs. Tavis would not approve of this.”
“My mother? Why would my mother not approve of you?”
“Your mother? No, no, I mean, uh, Mrs. Josh Tavis.”
“MaryAnn, she would love you. She would have picked you up for me. Maybe she has.”
“I don’t understand.”
“She has gone to the heaven 5 years ago. She must have sent you to me.”
Silence tears.
“Mr. Tavis, …”
“Josh.”
“Josh, I am delighted for your attention but, but I am not MaryAnn. I wouldn’t know how to be her. I, uh, ”
He silenced me with a kiss. No, no, he was trying to shut down my mind, I can’t but it was so enchanting.
“Julie, I have never said you have to be MaryAnn. No one can be like her. No way. She is as noisy as you are quiet. Julie, just be you, you don’t have to be anyone else for anyone, not even for me, ok?”
Monday, June 04, 2007
strange love
Have you fallen in love with someone whom you have never met? I know this sound so silly but I have fallen hard, real hard for the first time in my 35 years.
Never in my past relationships and failed marriage, have I felt this way.
We have met online, we chat and talk on the phone for just a month, and both, yes BOTH of us has fallen in love with each other. Well, you might think this is GREAT!! But, he refuses to meet me in person. His fear of commitment has overridden our love.
Never in my past relationships and failed marriage, have I felt this way.
We have met online, we chat and talk on the phone for just a month, and both, yes BOTH of us has fallen in love with each other. Well, you might think this is GREAT!! But, he refuses to meet me in person. His fear of commitment has overridden our love.
7 angels
Today I have received all seven angels he promised to make for me. Instead of feeling good, somehow I feel I am going to lose something. Why does he hurry himself to give me all? I don't understand. But I still love all the angels he has made for me :) love every single one of them, cos' I truly believe they are made with love. Thank you Dear!
Saturday, June 02, 2007
I miss him so ...
This morning I didn't join my mother in the park for exercise. My head hurt, maybe still tired from the flight. Woke up with receiving his morning call was great! It would be better if I could wake up right next to him.
After the brief conversation with my dearest (very brief :( ), i decided to go to the park where he does his running. I know I will be able to feel closer to him by just being there in the same park. Sending my love to him, through the fairies and angels in the park. :) I have missed him already!! and it was just less than an hour ago that I spoke to him!!
I sat at my usual bench, and talking to the ever-present cat who was sleeping under the bench. He responded to my meowing, and I could hear him purred :) But my blissful morning was interrupted by a group of happy friends and a couple in their wedding gowns. They wanted my spot, so I left. I walked to the pond side and sat on the stone and talk to the sprites of the water. Hmmmmm.... feel so lovely to communicate to the fairies and sprites again :) I hope they can hear me, I am still struggling to hear them. I know I know, I am not in a relax enough state to hear them, but I do wish to hear them so badly. I need to feel the presences with the angels and fairies again. Please do not elude me.
After the brief conversation with my dearest (very brief :( ), i decided to go to the park where he does his running. I know I will be able to feel closer to him by just being there in the same park. Sending my love to him, through the fairies and angels in the park. :) I have missed him already!! and it was just less than an hour ago that I spoke to him!!
I sat at my usual bench, and talking to the ever-present cat who was sleeping under the bench. He responded to my meowing, and I could hear him purred :) But my blissful morning was interrupted by a group of happy friends and a couple in their wedding gowns. They wanted my spot, so I left. I walked to the pond side and sat on the stone and talk to the sprites of the water. Hmmmmm.... feel so lovely to communicate to the fairies and sprites again :) I hope they can hear me, I am still struggling to hear them. I know I know, I am not in a relax enough state to hear them, but I do wish to hear them so badly. I need to feel the presences with the angels and fairies again. Please do not elude me.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
One day I'll fly away ...leave all these to yesterday.
One day, everyday I am wishing for that one day to arrive.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Monday, April 30, 2007
Love like you've never been hurt ...
Work like you don't need the money
Love like you've never been hurt
Dance like nobody's watching
Sing like nobody's listening
A beautiful quote by Satchel Paige.
The least I expect, Satchel Paige is baseball legend!!
Amazing!
Love like you've never been hurt
Dance like nobody's watching
Sing like nobody's listening
A beautiful quote by Satchel Paige.
The least I expect, Satchel Paige is baseball legend!!
Amazing!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
My Zoo Experiences! and my lovely encounter with a guy Nick
Had my first assignment after the training I have had at the zoo last nov, finally!!!
I have decided to take up the challenge of working on 2 camps back to back. Well, it was an overwhelming experience but hey, it was tiring too!! Gosh, running after a class of 40 is not a joking matter!! And I have to salute the teachers, who have to do this everyday!!! At the end of the day 4, I am so glad all the children have gone home for good! hahahaha
In the midst of this work assignment, I have another lovely encounter, in the form of a man, named Nick. It has been so refreshing talking to this guy, it is amazing!! We have clicked so well, and can talk about anything. I feel a liking for this stranger, :)
I like his voice, I like what we talked about, and above all, he loves my singing.
He called me and text me at camp, it felt so lovely. I know I was having this huge grin on my face, and I was blushing!! And I did something unthinkable!! I actually told this guy I like him! Gosh what is wrong with me?? I have never done that! Never ever have I admitted to a guy that I like him. But but the sweet thing is, he told me HE LIKES ME too!!! wow! now that's a relief hahahaha
I have decided to take up the challenge of working on 2 camps back to back. Well, it was an overwhelming experience but hey, it was tiring too!! Gosh, running after a class of 40 is not a joking matter!! And I have to salute the teachers, who have to do this everyday!!! At the end of the day 4, I am so glad all the children have gone home for good! hahahaha
In the midst of this work assignment, I have another lovely encounter, in the form of a man, named Nick. It has been so refreshing talking to this guy, it is amazing!! We have clicked so well, and can talk about anything. I feel a liking for this stranger, :)
I like his voice, I like what we talked about, and above all, he loves my singing.
He called me and text me at camp, it felt so lovely. I know I was having this huge grin on my face, and I was blushing!! And I did something unthinkable!! I actually told this guy I like him! Gosh what is wrong with me?? I have never done that! Never ever have I admitted to a guy that I like him. But but the sweet thing is, he told me HE LIKES ME too!!! wow! now that's a relief hahahaha
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Fantastic Performance!!
The recital was amazing! My gosh Ms Jeong is so awesome!
That voice, it was so beautiful. I am so proud to be one of her many students. :D
Singing with live accompaniment is an unforgettable experience ... my singing days way way back, I have the honour to perform solo with the live accompaniment of a grand piano. It was so awesome!
That voice, it was so beautiful. I am so proud to be one of her many students. :D
Singing with live accompaniment is an unforgettable experience ... my singing days way way back, I have the honour to perform solo with the live accompaniment of a grand piano. It was so awesome!
Friday, March 30, 2007
你相信有前世嗎？
你相信有前世嗎？
我相信，也很好奇我曾經過著什麽樣的人生。
是快樂？是悲傷？是無憂？是痛苦？。。。
我的前世是什麽性格，和現在是否相似？
腦裏有許多疑問，有誰能給我答案？
不知道爲什麽會那麽好奇。
我也不知道我知道答案了又會怎麽樣。
如果我告訴你，我深信我的原形是鯨，你會笑我嗎？
可是我是真的真的認爲我是。
我對虎鯨有著一種說不上來的熟悉。儅我到美國探望他們的時候，有种見家人的感覺。
在我出海的最後一天，有一只竟游到我的船旁揮著他的fin,好像在和我揮手道別。
我好感動！我會再回來的！一定會！
我相信那是我最終的家。
我盼望回家的那一天。恢復原形的那一天。
回家，那是多麽渴望的日子。
Saturday, March 10, 2007
向左走向右走
原來有一段刻骨銘心的戀情是那麽讓人嚮往的。
我也希望有一個機會能轟轟烈烈的愛一次。一次就好。。。
一個讓我的心完全燃燒的愛情。哪怕只是一個偶遇，一天、半天、一個小時，縂比沒有的好。
。。。。。。。。。。
他們彼此深信
是瞬間並發的熱情讓他們相遇
這樣的確定是美麗的
但變幻無常更爲美麗
他們素未謀面
所以他們確定彼此並無任何瓜葛
但是自街道、樓梯、大堂傳來的話語
他們也許擦肩而過
一百万次了吧
我想問他們是否記得
在旋轉門面對面那一刹
或是在人群中喃喃道出的「不好意思」
或是在電話的另一端道出的「打錯了」
但是我早知道答案
是的他們並不記得
他們會很訝異
原來緣份已戲弄他們多年
時機向未成熟
變成他們的命運
緣份將他們推進、驅離
阻擋他們的去路
忍住笑聲，然後閃到到一旁
。。。。。。。。。。
人生縂有許多的巧合
兩條平行缐也可能會 。。。 有交會的一天
。。。。。。。。。。
Thursday, February 22, 2007
First day out with Faith ALONE!!
Just the 2 of us, Faith is 2.5 years, and this is the first time I bring her all by myself without her Mommy!
She is such a joy to be with :) and she speaks in complete sentences, and with conjunctions!!!
Friday, August 25, 2006
Day 1!!!!
Today is flight day!! Finally this day has arrived! have been waiting forever for today to come hahahahaha
I was so excited that sleeping is quite impossible. too much excitement hahahaha besides i am worried that i might overslept :P
I am in Changi Airport now, waiting for my flight to KL, typing away at the free internet kiosk kekekeke
why to KL? well, cos i am flying by MAS. It is the cheapest air ticket I could find without GV2 hahaha, anyway flew by MAS several times to Japan, were nice, except for the transit at KL, quite boring but bearable.
The flight is 0650 and I arrived at 0400, well ... almost 3 hours before departure hahahaha i know, it's quite kiasu, but SQ always encouraged 3 hours prior to flight for checkin too! guess i was used to it :P
The checkin counters for MAS were not even ready till 0445! hahahaha then i finally completed my checkin at 0453, the departure gate was not even opened till 0500! hahahahaha.... My backpack is 8.3 kg!! and my hand luggage is 3.8 kg!! my poor shoulders!
There are quite a number of people already in the departure area, most of them sleeping on the floor, guess these are the transits passengers. Most of the shops are not opened as well, but thankfully the food stalls are opened! I could get some quick bite before i fainted hahahahaaha
Now, typing away again in the internet kiosk in the boarding area kekeke nice idea to have free internet! at least i could kill some time while waiting otherwise i will be bored to death LITERALLY hhahahahahahaha
I am sure to knock out later on flight! the zzz monsters are attacking
I have about an hour waiting time in KL before the flight to brisbane, hmm wonder if there are any free internet kiosk in KL ... hopefully there is, who cares about shopping in KL, i want to shop in australia!! Billabong here i come!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
what is the greatest love story in my heart?
what is the greatest love story in my heart?
There are so many love stories that I would love to be the heroine, I wish, I yearn and I yearn …..
But in the love stories that I have read, the heroines are tall, slender and beautiful and young of course! I am neither … still I dream that one day I would be swept away by love … one day …
Betrayed, disappointed, hurt … that was my emotions when I left the house that I have loved and stayed for 5 years, leaving behind a family that loved me dearly and a dog that adored me. But I could not bring myself to stay there with a man who has so cruelly slashed my heart into pieces. I could not; it was too much to bear.
I have come to seek refuge with my couple friends, occupying a room in their new dwelling. A refuge I choose to hide away from the world. For a while, it was good, I pretend that I was carefree and over the issues. I was moving on, but the sad truth … I was not ready, the hurt was too deep. I began to immerse in work and activities, and drinking. I just want to let the time pass and ignore whatever, be alive yet not live …
There are so many love stories that I would love to be the heroine, I wish, I yearn and I yearn …..
But in the love stories that I have read, the heroines are tall, slender and beautiful and young of course! I am neither … still I dream that one day I would be swept away by love … one day …
Betrayed, disappointed, hurt … that was my emotions when I left the house that I have loved and stayed for 5 years, leaving behind a family that loved me dearly and a dog that adored me. But I could not bring myself to stay there with a man who has so cruelly slashed my heart into pieces. I could not; it was too much to bear.
I have come to seek refuge with my couple friends, occupying a room in their new dwelling. A refuge I choose to hide away from the world. For a while, it was good, I pretend that I was carefree and over the issues. I was moving on, but the sad truth … I was not ready, the hurt was too deep. I began to immerse in work and activities, and drinking. I just want to let the time pass and ignore whatever, be alive yet not live …
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